calming down...

on paper it seems easy to say... ok. ill wake up at 8-- do hw until 10. work from 11-11 and then come home and be in bed around 1130 so i can be up tomorrow at 8am and do it all over....
but.
when i come home at 11... im wide eyed.
i just spent 12 hours running my booty off-- dealing with people--
and yes my body is exhausted (from literally standing and running for 12 hours), my brain is fried from thinking so much-- but sleep?! i can't do it.

not yet.

i have to chill out.
calm down.
and just wait until i get so worn out i can fall asleep.

so thats what im doing now...
calming down. slowing down. thinking about sleep.

perhaps a warm shower will help.
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long day of school tomorrow...

peace & love

night owl

ive never been a night owl... but in college i pulled some late nights.
i ALWAYS got my 8 hours in... but i would stay up LATE!
its 11 and im DONE.
i was going to try and stay up late to do work... since i can sleep in before work...
but i can't.
can't stay awake.

i guess im getting old?!

or maybe my warm cozy REAL bed... with my sweet husband laying beside me... thats far better than any late night of school work. and in college-- i had neither of those things.

to bed i go.
love & peace

comment happy

i was glad to see so many comments :: and by that i mean 3:: about the mountains. it reminds me that people DO read my blog!

here i am again.
procrastinating.

i think its the best part of blogs.

took my first 'assessment' test today.
im sure i did find on it-- which is a relief.

lab today (3 1/2 hours of being in a fake hospital cubicle without windows) was fun today. only because my lab partner is hilarious. we laugh so much. and have lots of fun. don't get me wrong, we are working really hard to get down the info and skills--- like today-- testing each cranial nerve. muscle strength. and various a sundry other random skills.
we have fun.
today our professor ::who is slightly crazy herself:: came over and started laughing at us. and was calling US crazy! and laughing about us being out of control! of course-- she graded our assessment and said we did a great job!! which is nice-- but told us in real life to be it together a bit more. hahaa.... oh well. she was laughing. we were laughing.
its a fun environment.

and really... if you only knew how crazy--- and odd-- this professor is-- you could understand how funny it is that she called US crazy!

oh well. it was a good fun day.
now time for the never-ending homework and reading.
ekkkkkkKKKK


oh but... the weather is finally AMAZING.
highs in the seventies!
lows in the FORTIES!

fall = perfection

love & peace

day dreamer...

...right now... the back porch door is open... the rain is pouring... its dark out... i have my 'pumpkin butter' candle burning... nice calming music playing... and im dreaming about living in the mountains.

i think my very wooded and hilly back yard makes me feel like im in the mountains... so i like to pretend im there. right now.

and the fact we have made our macminn family christmas plans... which will be taking place at a mountain cabin... i just can't get the mountains out of my mind.

i can't wait to live there.

because i will... one day.

or at least have a tiny little cabin on a mountain.
one day.

.....but for now.... i should get back to studying.
so i can one day make enough money to buy the previously mentioned tiny mountain cabin.

until that day... ill just be dreaming.
and smelling candles.
and pretending.

thankful

for rainy sundays with the windows in the house open...
... cool breeze blowing through the house
...smell of rain everywhere
... music lightly playing in the background
...delicious milkshakes
... a full day of studying
... an amazing sermon at the chapel today

it was a fantastic sunday.
tomorrow is a long long day of studying.

love & peace

perfect start to a saturday at work..... empty waiting room. if only it will stay this way

ugh.

my test was so annoying.
it would not load
--yes it was online--
when it finally loaded- it would not save all of my answers.
when i finally hit SUBMIT
it said "error: cannot submit"
ummmmmmmmm

yeah.
ive called my prof & emailed multiple times.
no response.

that was yesterday.

i tried to go back in to 'retake' the test perhaps...
nope would not let me do that either.

frustrated.

i think im going to go out with ryan tonight.
celebrate something.
how about life.
and being in love and married to my best friend- the greatest guy ever.

that sounds like a good reason.

love & peace