"great" grandmother- ness

ive been very blessed in my short life to have known 5 of my great grandparents & all 4 of my grandparents. and i actually have fond memories with them all. tonight my last living great grandmother died. she was 91ish. maybe 92. she has lived through so so so many things. wars, love, the beatles (and other amazing music), the great depression, civil rights, many many presidents, had 2 sons (one was my grandpa) 4 grandkids, and a whole bunch great grandkids (well maybe like 8 or so). anyway. she lived on a farm (where my uncle & cousin live now) on tons of land. i actually learne how to drive in her cow pasture with the same green truck my mom learned how to drive in. here is what i think of when i think of 'mawmaw'
(oh yes. what a good southern grandma name!)

-pecan trees (she had this one HUGE pecan tree & she and i and my grandma would go out there and pick up pecans and eat them)
- fishing. (she had a pond on her property. it had fish in it. so we went and fished)
- a green truck (the same one i mentioned earlier. that im pretty sure is still around... but i could be wrong. all i know is that darn truck has been around since my mom was a young-un... & seems like was driven a lot
- pound cake. simply put she made the best in the world.
- pick up sticks & lincoln logs. i just remember playing them all the time at her house when we were little
-not driving after it was dark... uncle b & mom would always drive her home from gmas after holiday meals bc it was always dark and she wouldnt drive
and most vividly:
- circus peanuts. (not literal ones) the candy orange ones. she had them in glass jars for us to eat that sat on the table by her door.

::its sooo funny the random things i remember from my childhood!::

i also think about love and compassion and strong willed. granted, i didn't know her like my mom & dad did, but from what ive heard, remember, and can figure out. she was all of those things. loved her husband a whole heck of a lot and cared for him so dearly. and man was she strong- i mean she worked on a farm-raised 2 boys-- she was strong all the way up to today. she was a real fighter....


anyway. its hard to say goodbye, but it is so good at the same time. she is with her hubby now, and with her son. and im positive they are a whole lot happier & doing a whole lot better than we are!

its been a long and hard night... obviously mom is now staying at home for the weekend, and im trying to get home. in times like these its so hard to be away. i am a family girl oh so much, and just want to be at home this weekend, and im hoping and praying something works out to get me there. ive searched all night for plane tickets, seems impossible (unless i have a spare 400bucks)... but tomorrow im going to wake up and start looking again- and look at all my options. maybe a quick road trip is in store.

anway. i need to get to bed. its been a long day.

**i will say on a much brighter & completely different note: ryan and i did our first bit of registereing today! went to a movie! had a great dinner! and watched some episodes of gossip girl! all that was before the news of mawmaw made it up to me... but anywho. im off to bed.

much love & peace
d.