the heart.

today was a life changing day. 

nope. not because of the election. 

but because i saw a heart- in real life. beating in front of me. im talking less than a foot away from me. I can't begin to describe how incredible it was. I can't understand how a person can look at a heart and not realize that there IS a God. I mean its so fascinating to me. to see the heart pumping blood and keeping a person alive. its INCREDIBLE. our hearts our so intense and delicate but huge strong muscles. really it blows me away. i could talk about it all day long. 

so the open heart surgery (aka bypass surgery aka CABG) was incredible. extremely long- 7am- 2:30pm. that entire time (-15mins for lunch) i was standing at the pt's head on a stool looking over a drape at this ladies heart. if you care to know how it goes... they cut open the chest (which is def the worst part) then they harvest the vessels (if they are getting one from the pt) next they begin the procedure to put the pt on the bypass machine. this take a good few hours. once they can turn on the bypass machine- the heart stops. completely. they go to a flat line (asystole) on the monitor and then the surgeon begins fixing the heart. he sews in the valve and does what he needs to do. the pt is only living bc they are on the bypass machine. after the heart is fixed they slowly begin to unfreeze the heart (there is a lot of ice involved in stopping the heart. interesting). as the heart warms up it begins beating. which is so darn cool to watch. they eventually wean the pt. off the bypass machine and let the heart take over. they sew up the chest. and wa-la. bypass surgery. 

it really is one of the most amazing things i have ever seen. i love watching stuff on the TV on like Discovery Health- and seeing the heart is cool on TV- but there is NOTHING like seeing it in real life. just watching it pump. and watching the mechanics work... awesome. 

ok ill move on. im sure thats WAYYYY more than most people wanted to read about. but i will say. today in the O.R. we began the day by listening to some david crowder and third day. this was the nurse anesthetist choice... but def one i enjoyed. throughout the day it got turned down... but i was OH SO AMUSED to come back after lunch to classical music playing. really. it was so darn funny. i had a few moments of laughter bc you could imagine- the background music is classical (lalalalllala- while watching a heart surgery and seeing all the pts blood pump through a machine). yeah it was like i was on a tv show. 

ok so the end. my day was fantastic. 

topped off by a wonderful dinner and a delicious pumpkin pie ( baked by ryan himself) 

im now laying in bed bundled up under my down comforter watching some abc with some fox news. its quite interesting. 

ive decided not to post about politics. i know you are all disappointed. i do have a few things i want to say/quote/end the night on... 

my friend MATT said this today in his blog:  In America, we think we have so much power and control over everything that goes on. We’ve been bred to believe that we are in the driver’s seat in all of the occurrences of the world. But we’re not. Not at all.

The Bible is very clear on the fact that God is ultimately in control of everything, including who rules a nation. Daniel 2:20-21 says, “Blessed be the name of God forever and ever, to whom belong wisdom and might. He changes times and seasons; he removes kings and sets up kings….” God brought in the Medes and the Persians to overthrown the Babylonian Empire. He hardened the heart of Pharaoh against the people of Israel. If we take the Bible literally, God has done exactly what Daniel 2 says – establish governments.

God is ultimately in control. Regardless of how people vote, who gets in office next year, whether or not or our country goes bankrupt, or we get nuked by some other country—God is ultimately in control. He always has been. He always will be. He will never forsake us, and he will never let us go from the palm of his hand—even if we make stupid decisions."

I am quote-ing him because I agree completely. Thats my thinking. along with I just wish everyone could get a long and be nice. The election completely turns me off to our country- the obnoxious, rude, comments that are said make me so sad. BOTH WAYS. here in NC two ladies were running against each other- and one actually began to question whether the lady was a christian. IN COMMERCIALS. really. ridiculous. it all makes me angry. i wish we had laws against saying all this crap about each other. i wish the candidates would talk about their stances and their ideas in their commercials and ads... not whats so "bad" about the other person. 

anyway. i just want some peace and love. 

let me end on this quote from Gerald Ford (just something to think about & let me add i dont know much about Mr. Ford, but I think this quote might be on to something): " a government big enough to give you what you want is a government big enough to take from you everything you have"

peace and love?

at least from me... to you.